Get Your Security From Me

In the midst of my darkest days, I heard the sweet whisper of my Savior’s voice:

“Get your security from me.”

You see, in those days I was walking through an ugly divorce, and I was running toward a man–a man who made me feel special and loved and alive. It was a balm to soothe my broken heart, my broken spirit.

But God knew He was the only true healing I could find, and He was calling me to run to him instead of any human. He wanted me to see I could trust Him to pick up every broken piece of my heart and life and create something beautiful. He wanted me to see that He was more than enough, regardless of what I needed. He wanted me to see that He would restore everything I had lost and more.

He has been so incredibly faithful over this last decade!

And so, that’s the end of the story, right? I now walk perfectly with my Father, never doubting His goodness, always trusting Him before everything.

Unfortunately, I find myself acting just like the Israelites, watching the Red Sea part so they can walk through on dry ground only to swallow up their enemies. As they watch the miraculous scene, they can’t help but sing songs of praise to the Mighty God who saved them! Their hearts overflow with songs of thanksgiving!

Then we turn the page to find them grumbling and complaining because they miss the delicacies of Egypt. They forget about all the hardships of slavery in the land, but they clearly remember the delicious foods that were theirs for the asking.

That’s where I find myself.

Sunday morning, we had the great privilege of listening to my daughter lead us to the foot of Jesus in worship! The Spirit was so real in that place! Our hearts and hands were lifted high, waiting to receive what the Spirit had for each of us! We waited in anticipation (Psalm 5:3).

As the pastor began to preach, I found my mind distracted. I began to look at the balance in my retirement account. After years of being a single mom, it was pretty paltry before the economic woes of our country but now it seems almost non-existent. Then, I turned to my investment calculator to begin to estimate how much I might have if the market earns 5%, 6%, 7%. I began to worry and fret about when and even if I might get to retire because the truth is I am burned out. I began to calculate what different options might do if we changed our strategy. And then,

“Get your security from me.”

Yes, those unmistakeable words calling me to trust Him, to remember how He has faithfully blessed me in the past and how He promises to take care of me. Reminding me that the treasures of this earth are fleeting but His treasures last forever (Matthew 6:19-21). Reminding me no one can serve two masters (Matthew 6:24). Reminding me He cares for me even more than the Lilly of the field or the sparrow in the air (Matthew 6:28-30).

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today. Matthew 6:32-33

It seems I have forgotten those lessons from the wilderness where God carefully provided for our every need, how when I got divorced I was only making about $500/month. How did I survive financially? The only explanation is the faithfulness of my God who knew my every need and provided through the small gift and the big gift. He was the God that doubled and tripled my salary repeatedly to ensure I could put food on the table. He was the God who had the foresight to give us a place to live at no cost (a home we now own). He was the God who allowed me to put back even that paltry amount in my retirement account while many single moms couldn’t save anything. He was the God who owns the cattle on a thousand hills and always provided for me and my kids (Psalm 50:10). The tears sting my eyes even as I remember His faithfulness!

I’ll be honest: I don’t remember a whole lot about what our pastor said Sunday morning from 1 John 3, but I do remember that God spoke to me. I don’t know what the future looks like, but I do know who holds my future. I don’t know what my next step is but I do know I am trying to turn to Him for my security. I don’t know how long I will have to work, but I know my Father in heaven cares about my worries and fears and insecurities. I am firmly convinced my Father in heaven will care for me even more spectacularly than he does the Lillies of the field and the sparrows in the air because He cares for me!

Where are you getting your security? Can I tell you there’s no better place than to find it in the One who loves you enough to send His only Son to the cross for you? Can I tell you there’s no better place of security than the One who tenderly cares for your every need? Can I tell you there’s no better place than the One who has been faithful through the ages?

Here Him whispering, “Get your security from me.”